Funny thing about depression. If you’ve never had it, you’ll never fully understand it. It’s like a black hole has been put in your chest and you suddenly can’t breathe anymore. Everything is a blur, everything becomes routine because you don’t have the energy to do anything but what you absolutely have to. Eat, shower, sleep…maybe. You have no reason, you feel like the world is crashing down all around you.
Good morning, sunshines! What a beautiful morning in a warm bed when outside is -23°C. It is a good motivation not to go to school and spend the day at home. Or maybe not at home… When you don’t have to go to school the weather magically become warmer. What can be better than five days holidays in a middle of the year? It’s time to party!
My old diary was full of you, so I bought the new one and named My life without you. It doesn’t mean that I forgot you, it means that I’m trying to move forward without you. You can’t even imagine how hard it is ;D You were my personal hell all this time. But I remember one time than you said true to me: we have never actually been together. Because you were just a dream and you have never been as good as that boy from my thoughts. My thoughts made you perfect and every time I saw you I found myself disappointed of something I didn’t understand then. I know I do. And I start my new life without you.